The World

    The following is an excerpt from Grace Nissan’s The Utopians, out now from Ugly Duckling Presse.

    The first world was suffering, suffering. The second world was liberation. Liberation!
    But why, said the first world, does it look so much like suffering?

    Like suffering only once, the second world said—like suffering plus change.
    Is that not the first world? No, said the second world, the first world is

    suffering plus nature, the second world is suffering plus change. How come,
    someone said, and we can’t know what world they said it from, how come

    you can’t get rid of suffering. The second world answered, well then where
    would the world be. We don’t want to free ourselves from the world.


    THE WORLD

    The first world was a world, the second invention. The first world was
    a world, the second critique. The first world was a world, the second

    the survival of the first in other terms. We had started saying phrases like
    Bad Utopia. Collective speech like a mime was shoplifting nouns from

    imagined shelves, so well imagined, I wept to see how empty they were,
    as punditry sounded, what is this, Venezuela / Texas / the Soviet Union / the

    world? What is this, theworld? So we started speaking, not quite at the same
    time, until someone thought the voice was plural, and that politics

    had arrived like a breath of fresh pollution. The first world was a world, the
    second invention, tried to reverse the coordinates but got stuck on the same

    equation: labor & punishment, prison & syntax, even the sodomy was
    trickle down. Picture this: the first world was

    theworld, the second was again, the first world was thestage, the second
    was the set, built from the planks of the first world’s stage, & the more

    elaborate the escape towards the rafters, the more hollow the foundation,
    ensuing collapse, & the second world looked just like the heap of the first,

    falling, rise higher


    THE WORLD

    The first world was born and the second world was born, but the second world had
    to cannibalize the parts available, this baby sibling world, mirror

    of the first. The first world was a world but the second was a smart ass, seeking
    revenge and reversing the predicates, beckoning the first world

    forward, scooting away, to watch the world fall on its face. This was the second
    world, the world that forgot it was the first world, because it called

    for the abolition of the first world, but forgot to abolish the first world in the
    second, it forgot that it was a peninsula. But the first world was made by

    someone else—was it God, or Thomas More, or my mother—and the second world
    was made from the pieces of the first—like yours More, or my

    tract,  written from your text, can only figure an ocean between landmasses. But
    like a little sibling cannibalizing the parts available, devouring the affect,

    stringing up a more convincing marionette, a second world which said “down with
    the first world,” forgetting it was the first world, it was the first

    world’s little kin.


    THE WORLD

    The first world was to lose but our chains but the second world was nothing
    the first world was the world the second was but didn’t know it was I’ll be

    back said the first world, the second world was do not go gentle into that
    good
    was, the first world was losing its world to the second, the second

    world was coming, but when it came to the door, it answered in the robes
    of the first world, so when you said four score and seven so when you said to

    be or not so when you said frankly my dear I don’t give a when you said what
    the world had said, the world was world, and you couldn’t get out of it. So

    you had to say what the world said against itself, you had to say make
    America you had to say sexual relations with you had to say ever after you had

    to let the world say what it says. You speak in a locked room, which creates
    another room, even if you can’t get out of it.


    THE WORLD

    But the second world was when the first world forgot itself, a phrase like Bad
    Utopia, like blackheads in the mirror, you had to squeeze the mirror, and see

    if the blackhead would leave your skin. The world was like that, at least the
    world the world was was like that. But we wanted it to become the world

    the world was not, so we squeezed the mirror very hard.


    THE WORLD

    The world! The world was the world. And then there was a world the world
    was not, call it the second world, the world the world imagined it could be.

    The world! Semantic satiation of the world. The world was a sound losing meaning
    through repetition, so a second world emerged, in the mind of

    the first world, a world starved of meaning. And the second world negated
    the world, as it took its bricks it decried the mortar, as it constructed the

    edifice it defied the foundations, it became a better world, but forgot it was
    the first world, so it rebuilt the things it abolished, in negation. Island

    forgot its connections.  Every so often, as you walk down a street, you come
    to a large building, which has a special name of its own. Hello special name of

    its own. Hello a large building. Hello walk down a street. Hello the dead mix
    freely hello or not to be. The Utopians are their own

    nothing to lose but.


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